new year 2011

Dear diary,

Its already entering a new year but I dont know what the meaning of this.Still don't have any new resolution,but an objective yes,which I think it will be the same for every year until I achieve it. Maybe, for this year 2011, what I really want is...someone special to share my life with?in other word a girlfriend!duhh,I am pathetic,lonely in sadness guy..well,this just a human nature that I just keep on detained it until I find the right time and  I think now is the  suitable time. However, I guess I still need to wait as I havent found those that suit me. Even if there are, its not that easy to make them mine. I am not a typical boy that can approach women easily with a sweet word that can make women fall in love. Sure, it takes an effort for me to get a girl and I waiting a bless too when the time is right with a little chance, I''ll have one..Waittt, this a engineer diaries?why I writing about love?of coz engineer need love but still ,that doesnt make any sense at all. Ok,lets jump back to engineer or job related things, I must express this, I have a boss that are nervous out of nowhere and it annoy me a lot. What to do,I am just the new employee here and still in probation. Patient is what I need right now, a lot of patient. So, this year 2011,I do hope I can maintain this job and make a useful experience of it. One year should be enough for to get another job aite?Nevertheless to say, that I will survive here and hopefully it will bring goodness to me,God wills~

Lonely in sadness~

Dear diariy,

Long time no see huh?After a while, I have lost interest on doing this but I kept my heart to continue what I did started couple of month ago. To be honest, I just dont know what to write and it feel sucks when I be able to finish one.Perhaps I am not into this, very poor in writing but still pretending I can do this.Anyway, I just doing it for fun only,its not that anyone will read this,so no worries, do it as long you can do it.Lately, loneliness is always surround me,feeling an emptyness in my life. Sometimes, I wish to share what did happen in my life but its not easy for me to search someone that I can really express my feeling, sharing with all my might without nothing to worry. Am I be able to find one that I can trust?Maybe one day as for now I'll just go trough this darkness upon me until I"ll find a light on the end of the tunnel...